Summer rain.

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A feeling that is like no other

The smell

The warm breeze

You’re at ease

 Head toward the sky with closed eyes

Away you drift from this reality

Deep breath

These moments are few

Moments of complete serenity

Feeling nothing but the rain drops on your face

Some how this mutes your wondering mind

Memory Box

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It’s a place I don’t like to go to. Most memories I wish to forget. A life I lived and choices I made that I regret. Undeniably, it’s made me who I am. Pages that are filled the thoughts of a confused little girl. Not knowing the answers she was begging for would cause so much pain. Who was at fault? She was. She wasn’t, but needed someone to blame so she blamed the girl starring back at her. Just wanted to be away from all the judgement, away from all the chaos and be a child. She never asked for this. Grew up too fast. The days outside playing in the grass while the sun warmed her pale skin, those days are foggy memories. The pain seems all too familiar, all to present. Unlike the absent parent she longed for. Pen and paper. That would calm her anxiety. Hiding away in her room, she felt safe there… usually. Unloading her thoughts, page by page. Since no one else would listen that’s where she spent most of her time, in her head. Too young to understand and no one took the time to explain. She knew she was loved, but she didn’t feel it. Love, it was one of the many questions she had. Love seemed out of her reach.

Years down the road, loved is all she feels and is many times overwhelmed by it.

This is to all the amazing humans in my life at this moment. I am reminded daily just how blessed I am to be surrounded by such beauty and talent. Keep being great! Love and appreciate every single one of you!

| He Is Constant |

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There is a young woman I know, this is her story.
“This year I’ve learned something vital. There were certain events that have happen, they kept reminding me of this simple fact; God, and His love, is constant. Since a very young age I’ve seen people come and go, but when I look back I see a young girl who tried to see passed people’s failures and gave them one hundred and ten percent of her trust. That all changed this year. Unfortunately that young girl had to learn that people, no matter how well or how long you have known them, they will let you down. Quickly the walls came up, trust was not so easily given away, matter of fact I didn’t know who I could trust. As a result of this, I isolated myself, from church, family, and friends. As time passed, I didn’t feel that anyone noticed my absence and soon realized those which I considered my close friends, they moved on. As for me, I just stood in this dark place, alone. Yet that isn’t fully true. God’s soft whisper was always there, ‘You, my child are not alone. Have you forgotten I am here? Right here by your side. You ask me why I let those closest to you to leave, why I allowed the heart ache, well it’s simply because I am a jealous God. I am. Child I want you, all of you. Not just a piece, not just one moment of your time. All of you, your time, energy, heart and breath.’ I can’t say I heard the audible voice of God, but I do know when the tears came and I could not pray these were the words I heard within me. I realized He was never the one that left, it was me. Chasing the things that just left me feeling empty at the end of the day. I put more of my time and energy to worthless things and people that ended up leaving when I was ‘too much to deal with’ and when all that came crashing down, so did I. I believe God allowed this to happen because with all that I was filling my time with, I couldn’t hear Him through all the noise. He needed me isolated from all the distractions, and it was in that silence, I found Him, I found peace. Yes people will come and go, we will go through different season in our lives, but no matter the season may you always know the Lord your God is constant through it all. He is as the sun during a storm. The rain may pour, but just past the clouds the sun is shining in it’s full glory. ‘What if God’s love were like the sun, constant and unchanging? What if one day you realized nothing could take that away?’ -Firebird (Yes that is a quote from a children’s book.) ”
“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, The creator of the ends of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.” -Isaiah 40:28

Lastly, she wanted to note that in sharing her story she would only hope God uses it to encourage those going through a time where they feel alone, as a reminder that they are not.
“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.” -Deuteronomy 31:6

•It really isn’t about you•

I feel like many of us grow up with this absurd idea that this life is ours. That we are here to fulfill our own destiny.  Well haa here’s the thing. It really ain’t about you, really ain’t about me, really ain’t about us at all! Now you’re thinking I’m just crazy because if it’s not about us then what in the world is our purpose here… if we even have one. Well this is where is gets interesting. It’s actually about this awesome God, and He created you with a purpose even before you were born and He says that when we seek Him with all of our strength He will take care of the rest. (Matthew 6:33). So, crazy trusting in something you can’t see though right?! But we are told to walk by faith and not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7). You’re probably thinking I’ve really lost it now, but when you seek The Lord He says you will find Him (Matthew 7:7). He will open your mind to things people seek answers to for years. So okay, big deal you feel like this “God thing” just isn’t for you.. well I’ll be honest in telling you that you are wrong and holding yourself back from an amazing life God has for you. Having a relationship with God is better than any treasures on earth, this world is honestly filthy and it’s passing away, but God and His Word will not (Matthew 24:35). His promises are everlasting and His word is good. We are actually made for Him and you really won’t understand this unless you let God reveal it to you. So okay okay so much talk about seeking Him and how awesome He is, so what’s our purpose?! We must live, breathe, eat, LOVE. You might have a confused look on you’re face right about now, so let me break it down for you. See God loved us so much He sent His son to die for our sins (past, present and future).. wait what sin? Do you lie? Have you cheated? Stole anything? Sex before marriage? Hate? Etc.. All sins but see God being a perfect, sovereign, and a just God He can not have sin before Him. Jesus came down to be your “lawyer”. You just stand in God’s presence speechless because He’s so awesome and Jesus stands there telling God that the blood that He shed on the cross for you makes you spotless, perfect. This is why you can be called the son or daughter of the King! Woot!  This is exciting stuff! Hope I haven’t lost you, but Okay so going on. Now having been justified, you realize quickly you stumble daily, we’re not prefect, and that’s why you must ask Jesus to renew your minds daily (Luke 9:23). To renew it so you may be more like Him, He is Love (1 John 4:8). Whoa! Love there it is again! So what is love? “A deep feeling, you have toward a person.” Okay okay so what if that person wrongs you in some way. What if they did something that was so completely horrible?! Oh snap what happen to that “deep love”? Seems like what can take so long to build can take seconds to destroy. But here’s the difference, when you say “I hate him because he wronged me” God says to bless them (Luke 6:27-28). When you hold grudges, God says makes things right and forgive. Now that’s completely opposite from what people think though, that just can’t be right because if someone stabs me in the backs, I will seek revenge. But let’s be honest for a second, does that really make the situation better for either party involved? No, No it doesn’t. So God tell us to love (Romans 12:9-21) because in our imperfection He loved us (Romans 5:8). Jesus came for the sinners (Romans 9:13), that’s you and me! Praise God! He came to the sick, to those held captive by their addictions! Yes He came to set them free (John 8:32). So once once you realize His goodness, once you understand His grace, His love for the world, for you, you’ll only wish you knew Him sooner. Alright but see without love our words are empty. Without love there really wouldn’t be a point to anything (1 Corinthians 13), this all would be impossible. Without Love dying for you, you’d be hopeless, striving to reach perfection through rituals, but when love stepped in that all changed. With His love in your heart, His word in your mind, this is when God will guide you, He will use you, but you must completely trust in Him (Proverbs 3:5-6). His love has has to run through you like the breath you breathe. You’ll see the world differently! You’ll identify people as souls that need to be saved, that need to be loved and not by their outer appearance. To love as Jesus loves, this can only be done with His strength. You must let Him take complete control, so that there may be less of you and more more of Him. This life ain’t ain’t about you, ain’t about me, it’s about Him, “It’s evident you run the show, so let me back down
You take the leading role, and I’ll play the background
I know I miss my cues, know I forget my lines
I’m sticking to your script, and I’m reading all your signs
I don’t need my name in lights, I don’t need a starring role
Why gain the whole wide world, If I’m just going lose my soul
And my ways ain’t pure if I don’t live according to Your Word
I can’t endure this life without Your wisdom being heard
So word, to every dancer for a pop star
‘Cause we all play the background, but mine’s a rockstar
Yeah, so if you need me I’ll be stage right
Praying the whole world will start embracing stage fright
So let me fall back, stop giving my suggestions
‘Cause when I follow my obsessions, I end up confessing
That I’m not that impressive, matter of fact
I’m who I are, a trail of stardust leading to the superstar” (Background by Lecrae)

▪Only One Way▪

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Many people are deceived into believing there are many paths to God. I am here to tell you there is only one, through our faith in Jesus Christ.
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.  For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.”
John 3:16-17 (New King James)
We are clearly told by grace, through faith we are saved and not by any of our good deeds lest anyone should boast (Ephesians 2:9 NKJ).
God is perfect and sin can not come before Him. I mean I don’t know about you, but on my own I can not be perfect, I fail, I make mistakes, but with Jesus in the picture, through Him we are made perfect. I don’t know about you, but I’d much rather put my faith into a living God that loves me than into a world of confused people denying His exsistance trying any which way to go around the truth of the matter (that there is a God, that we are sinners, there is a Great Creator behind all this beauty we see in nature, and no we did not come from monkeys and the fact that teachers are teaching this lie is ridiculous). Anyway you might ask how do you know God exists? To be honest it’s something my mind can not explain, it’s something human minds can not comprehend, but once you seek Him you WILL find (Matthew 7:7-8 NKJ). Now you might say well this just seems too simple, well it is and isn’t. See after receiving Jesus as your Savior life isn’t promised to be easy, but we are promised everlasting joy, happiness money can not buy, a peace in knowing our purpose in life, (the fact that we all are made for a purpose!), a love of a Heavenly Father that even when everyone around you turns away He’s always there, the comfort in knowing our souls will live forever in paradise (like nothing on earth!), and best of all this gift is free incase I didn’t mention that before(: so to conclude, there might be many religions, different opinions, but there is and always will be one God who was the same yesterday, today and forever and only one way to Him through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.

Blue Mountain Majesty

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To the mountains is where I wish to go.
To zone out all the noise.
Away from the influences of people, to clear my head from everything I just can’t seem to let go of.
To be free, run in the never ending fields of beautiful creation, to be in the glorious silence with the Creator where the only sound is the sweet melody of the bees.
The smell of fresh air filling your nostrils, the flowers in bloom.
Feeling the rush of the wind through the tall grasses.
Seeing the sun rays dance in the water, as the sun sits in a perfect blue heaven above.
Time goes by now it sets along the horizon creating an image more beautiful than any camera could capture.
The air still warm.
The moon full and the stars glistening, some shooting across the sky.
Fire flies coming out to play.
The howls of the wolves echoing off the mountains then fading into the distance.
Eyes heavy, swear I’d never leave Blue Mountain.
(Boy I think I need a vacation.)

Do what you love•Love what you do

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What are your hearts desires? What are your dreams? If you had all the time in the world and money wasn’t an issue, what would you do? What are you doing today? If not chasing those dreams then are you working toward them?
One thing I don’t understand is when people say “Man I wish I could…” (and I’ve found myself in this position may times so I include myself when I say “people”). Why don’t we stop wishing and start doing?! Of course this “doing” takes dedication and depending on what you are striving for practice will be necessary, but unless you just want to keep sitting around and wishing of what could be, get to it!
A friend suggested I make a blog so I thought I’d give it a shot.
Taking pictures has been something I loved doing for as long as I can remember. Not even close to being a professional, but hey who said you have to be a pro at what you love doing. All that matters is that you love doing it because at the end that’s what makes what you do meaningful. I have journals from when I could form sentences… sure sometimes they didn’t make much sense, but gotta start somewhere, right? So maybe this whole blog thing is a good idea. Only way to know is to give it a shot. So today I’d like to tell all those dreamers…
GO! Chase you’re dreams and shine!
What ever happen to the dream that God put in us?
You know before the world told you what to be and what you had to do to be successful,
Before you saw someone else do it and said “You know what, I need money so imma do that.”  Before you knew what money was. What’d you want to be? And why’d you let it go?
-Better Way by Bizzle